Part I: In Which I Randomly Consider What Blogging Has Thus Far Meant to Me.
Sometimes I wonder what my goal is, in keeping this blog. Is it a way of celebrating our successes? Working through questions and concerns? Expressing dissatisfaction with the status quo? Sharing a laugh or two? Helping others who seek to walk this often challenging path of homeschooling? Swapping ideas? Promoting the excellent work of others? Keeping in touch with out-of-town family members? Making new friends, in a world that can sometimes be downright isolating?
I don't think this blog will change the world. If my current stats are any indication, I am the very definition of irrelevant! Honestly, I'm ok with that. :) I've never really tried to get this blog any serious attention, and frankly, when it occasionally does seem to garner wider interest, I feel kind of embarrassed. I guess I'm just not the change-the-world type when it comes right down to it.
I really have valued the connections I've made over the past two years, though, and I have to say that this has thus far been a very enriching and interesting experience for me! Will I keep at it? I dunno -- sometimes it feels like an addiction, and sometimes it feels like a burden. Consistency R Not Me.
In general, though, I have to say I like it. I actually like reading my own stuff, and looking at my own pictures -- hah! If others also like and benefit from anything I've committed to these posts, I am actually pleased by that. And those two factors alone are enough to keep me at it, at least for now.
I came into blogging well-behind the curve of the sudden explosion of bloggers in the Catholic mom/4Real networks. I was the last kid on the block to set up a google reader account. And while everyone else has moved on to the exciting, fast-paced world of facebook and twitter, I remain steadfastly behind that curve, as well. (Sorry, I just don't "get" twitter.) I really don't have a lot of interest in finding even more reasons to hang out on the computer -- I would actually get more satisfaction out of the successful completion of one more load of wash, to be totally honest! I want to be a successful wife, mom and homeschooler; I want my children and my husband to be happy, and I want my house to be reasonably clean. (My definition of what qualifies on that last one has gone down considerably in recent years; but I digress.) :) To the degree that keeping this blog helps me to meet those goals, I must say I really do love it. But it can also get in the way of meeting those goals -- for example, my family would be better off right now if I were more closely supervising the kids' getting dressed.
Hmm. So I'll come back to this later. Score one for blogging-inspired self-awareness! :) More to come.